Today was well... horrible

Whats another day of an aching heart? What another day of tossing trust out the window? Only this time, it wasnt a secret being told...it was a straight out blatant lie...my favorite kind! i never thought i would actually see one so bad! Last night after watching a very good movie. "Lifted" (I highly recommend to anyone and everyone!) the bf was in tears (we were skyping) and he was laughing at his phone and he said _____ (best friend) was trying to make him laugh because she saw his facebook status... Funny thing. Today I saw her and on my way out the door i recommenced they watch the movie and i said but im sure u know how it goes. She looked at me puzzled, i said u were cheerin _____ up last night when he was upset. She proceeded to tell me that she had not talked to him since yesterday morning..... hmmm? And there went the last bit of trust I had for him. and here I am at 2am trying to figure out how to make it better... wait? isnt that his job since he made the mess? Oh well, i am used to it by now. I love him more than anything and cant imagine life without him, but i cant stay if this keeps up. His gf, who is also a close friend of mine was consoling me in my sloppy mess state after i called him about it. Which went as follows. "Hey" "Hey" "who were you giggling to last night when you were texting?" "Why?" (<---thats where i think he knew he was screwed) "who" "it was ____" "Oh, thats funny because i just left there and she hasnt talked to you since yesterday morning" "weird"(<--Really?) "hmm, yeah that is weird, ok bye" *click* ..... anyway she was telling me he is afraid to tell me things because he doesnt want to hurt me. but she has never seen him happier with anyone else and if she expected anything (implying cheating which for the record i dont believe he would do) she would let me know. and that the other morning when i slept let he called her in a panic asking if she had talked to me because he thought i was ignoring her. So at least I know he cares... but why cant he care enough to tell me the truth? I think not to hurt me is a terrible excuse considering i have explained to him that I would rather be upset or angry about something for a time, than be lied to. I can get over things fairly quickly, but i cant just give my trust back after a few days, it doesnt work that way. He is coming to visit for a few days tomorrow (well today) so i hope things arent as tense and awkward as they are right now, and I hope my first therapy session tomorrow helps because this blog only does so much.........